Part 2

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By the time high school was over, I was so happy to get out of there. I had lots of friends and was very outgoing and social but I was ready to move on so I never went to my prom or my graduation. I bet you thought I was the type of gal to go to these events, didn't ya? They just never really seemed important to me, I can't really explain why. 

As most teenagers, I struggled deciding what I wanted to do with my future. I took a year off school to work and figure it out. I ended up working two jobs about 7 days a week and had fun in between, maybe too much. I also went to upgrade my marks during this time due to my slacking off while in high school. 

The time came and I picked a program, unfortunately the enrolment was insane and people had top notch marks compared to mine so I didn't get in, I was defeated. So I went with another program that was fairly new, that would help me when I reapplied for the next year. College was tough, no one I knew was there with me but I did meet some amazing people while I was there. I did a lot of partying, probably too much. Once I finished, I went into another program and I had no interest in it at all and neglected it. I spent most of my time having too much fun and completely losing myself. I went through a very toxic relationship that destroyed a good part of me. It was dark for me. Eventually I came out of it but did not continue to pursue the course, it was of no interest to me. 

I ended up just continuing to work. Life was kind of all over the place and had no real direction. I didn't know what I wanted, I was stuck. 

Can any of you relate? I knew so many people that had their shit together, off to university, fulfilling their dreams and passions, shooting for the stars and then there was you? Was this my forever? What have I done?